Sunday, April 17, 2005
Recalling the past...
Today wasnt really a sunny day and I nearly overslept. Luckily I didnt... Today's Meech's class was just as great. A lot of old combat tracks.. I really like the song 'If I were you' by Candee Jay, we did the one of the combat using this track. I like the lyrics... it just makes me think of very sad things.. although it is quite a techno song. But i really dont know what I am sad about too and who I am thinking of when I listened to this.. But i was crying in front of my computer when i listened it again through radio.blog just now..There's this emptiness inside.. What's wrong with me ar?? maybe the time of month again wahhahah
But i cant find the mp3.. I'm still listening it through radio blog.
If I were you
I would never let me go
If I were you
I would always love me so
If I were you
I can't play your part in life
but I would surely walk my way
I cannot think the way you think
But I would never go away
You can trust me when I say
That I will always be for real
You can always count on me
No matter how alone you feel
If I were you
I would never let me go
If I were you
I would always love me so
If I were you
I would never..
I would always..
I can't tell you what to do
I can only hope for more
More decisions to be good
Like the way they were before
Watched "Liang Dai Dian Li Gong Si" on SCV just now.. the topic today was "Xiao yuan gu huo zai" (which means School bullys).. Looking at their discussion, it brought back alot of memories when I was in Secondary School.
I wasnt a school bully, i wasnt a goodie 2 shoe either. I was a prefect when I was in Secondary School. And i was one of those people who go around the school spotting those who hid in corners to smoke in school and standing up for those who are being bullied. I was rather fierce too. I think alot of people hated me... I remembered there was this net friend i got to know from msn... he still remembered me and ask me whether i was that "fierce prefect".. wah..I remembered very vividly that i was threatened by some girls and nearly kena beaten up cos I stood up for a guy as they were ridiculing him, poking fun at him calling him names like "ah gua". I WASN'T interested in him lah, i think i'm just kaypoh or really 'kiam pa' (asking for beating) hahha..
And after that, those group of girls always shout me names like "tekko" (bamboo) , I AM THIN LO.. I KNOW, DONT NEED TO REMIND ME THAT~ hahha, whenever they passed by my class. They even got my house telephone number and called me at night threatening me, and i mean THREATEN. I really was quite scared at one point of time as they were really disturbing my life.
Than one person stood up for me. Alcina. She wasnt a goodie 2 shoe either. Once, they were shouting at me when they passed by my class, because of me, she shouted at them through the classroom very loudly.. and she helped me settle everything, I dont know what she did.. I presume she warned them not to disturb me again. And everything stopped. It's really a pity that i have lost touched with her now... I never see her again after secondary school as after that i moved to a better class and slowly she got her own group of friends while i had mine. But after that incident, i just gave up. I learnt not to be so harsh too.. or kaypoh.. hahah
And hor.. i met the girl who threathened me and shouted vulgarities at me one fine day in NUS toilet.. she remembered me.. we smiled at each other and exchanged some small talk... And we both knew that we have grown up...
Kiyo 到此一游 @ 8:01 PM
