Saturday, September 04, 2004
Wanted to go shopping today. Planned to go so many places yesterday but didnt even fulfill my plans. Just felt so tired after lunch and decided that saturday is not the day to go to Orchard as it will be so crowded and the fitting rooms will be full of people.
Am I too sensitive or what? I still cannot forget the incident that happened one year ago when he lied to me. Sometimes i get reminded again through some of his actions. I know that trust is very important,but sometimes it is the guys that betray and make us very suspicious and insecure. My best friend is facing the same problem too. She is also under alot of stress. Alot more than me. I didnt tell him what i think just now through MSN. I suppressed it hoping that the thoughts will go away. I know if I tell him what I think, we will sure quarrel. I wont let my mind stray too much. Maybe some girls like me really think too much but usually it is the guy's action that made us so insecure. It is not that we are lack of confidence. But sometimes, you cant deny that once a relationship gets long, the guys might feel bored (I cant deny that there are girls who are like that too). And it's much worse when you are being betrayed once. Difficult to build trust again. poor friend of mine. I fully understand her plight. She says she's going crazy. I was going crazy during that time too.
Now, i feel so much better. I controlled myself well while chatting with him now. I didnt tell him how I feel cause I know we will definitely quarrel.
i heard something on a Taiwan entertainment show and felt that it's really meaningful and really applies to me too. to guys..."you may have friends, sports and alot of things in your world, but for girls... the only important thing is just you"
Kiyo 到此一游 @ 9:50 PM